Life

is kinda scary. ive never noticed how fast it goes by. im so yung and im startin to realize that alot of thngs don matter as much as i make them seem to. people are changin constantly and so am i but in the end we all knew we would. there are some frnds im becomin extra extra close to and some im losing but instead of bein sad about it im jus okay. im sure that if we don stay in eachothrs lives theres a reason. Family is becomin so important to me. i jus want to cherish every moment with them because it seem like no matter what happens they are still there. its funny how family puts up wit eachothr and just the othr day i realized how much more comfortable i am infront of family. i dance like a retard infront of them, i nevr do my hair, and i snort when i laugh. ha! im such a loser[;

&theres anothr thing. i am a loser. and i love it! i use to try sooo hard to fit in with the cool kids and when i finally stopped tryin is when they all started likin me. Crazy i know.
i was so scared to go to highskewl. what if im alone, what if i get lost, what if i dont make any friends? then it hit me. im goin into highskool alone, whethr i have a bunch of frnds goin too, im still goin alone. and im leavin it alone too so im just guna have the best time i can in highschool. Parties? yeaaah but ima try hard in classes because ive been thinkin about everything alot lately and life dusn end aftr highschool, it starts. so i wana start off right[;

yesturday for fathers day we went to eat at a resturaunt where mariachis where playin. a boy askd me to dance and we danced. even thought i didn know what i was doin i was laughin the whole time because i was trippin and fallin and i didn thnk he wuld ask for my numbr but he did! when we got home (around 10) i went to the backyard and sat nex to the fountain. i starred up at the stars and i cldn help but thnk about how beautiful they looked. they were like little nite lites in the sky and it leads me back to the beggining of my blog.

Life.

it goes by extremely fast and im determined to make the best of mine.